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Tuesday, August 4th, 2009
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6:35 pm - ho hum
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i dont have much to say because if i start spraffing i won't stop for a very long time and it'll be terribly emo and boring.
what i will say though is; australia is awesome. i want to move here. i miss having my 'own' people around. i passed all my first year exams. red wine is perhaps my new most favourite thing in the world, next to my lip piercing and new tattoo's...oh and my new australian other half. i have bad days here too apparently. over the past four days i've been an insecure bitch. i am currently trying to rectify the situation with kisses and cake.
i smoke too much
blaaaah
Lx
current mood:  weird
current music: arcade fire - no cars go
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| Thursday, June 4th, 2009
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4:00 pm - leaving on a jet plane
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so the day is approaching, on monday and 6:55am i will officially be on my way to australia.
i started packing today and along with making sure i have enough socks i started to feel extremely nervous. it's not the travelling or the fact i can count how many times ive been on a plane with one hand but...i dont know. a lot could change in 2 months. i am excited too, dont get me wrong, but i know the shit is going to hit the fan with family matters. my parents and my sister, and i am glad i wont be around to see it, but at the same time i feel like i'm the mediator and im a little worried things could get out of hand without me to off load on. not that it's a position i enjoy particularly, but i think it helps everyone to stick together a bit more.
and then there's john. we almost broke up, but once again ive given him another shot...sort of. a wise man once told me 'the heart wants what i wants' but there's only so much crap a person can put up with. i think ive had my share, so we're kind of on a break (what does that phrase even mean?)we're together but not, it's basically up to him to sort his life out over this summer, work out how he's going to be a better boyfriend and if he does get a job etc then i think we do have a real future. but he's let me down before, a lot. ive heard sorry a million times. i dont want him to have to cause to say it again. so i guess we'll see.i just dont like leaving things unfinished.
anyway, leaving do tonight should be interesting if nothing else
Lx
current mood:  restless
current music: rolling stones - you can't always get what you want
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| Tuesday, February 24th, 2009
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6:57 pm - um......
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good things.....
1. i got 91% in my maths integration exam, boo-fucking-yah
2. i have plenty of money for lucky strike fags as opposed to baccy. win!
3. i have just eaten my body weight in haggis/neeps/tatties.
4. im off to 12 hour tuesday at the union to celebrate aformentioned exam results
5. at 12-hour tuesday pints of cider are £1
6. i can now officially afford my flight to australia
bad things......
1. i found out my boyfriend has "photos" of his ex on his phone, and for some reason last night i acted like a didnt have a problem with it.....i do
2. said boyfriend is being.....i dunno wierd today? my 6th sense for drama is playing up
3. not looking forward to going to work tomorrow, seeing as i turned up for my shift on saturday still wired from the night before and 90minutes late *sigh*
4. from said night out last weekend my gums are sore, so eating is a bit painful
5. i miss my friends that are far away
so, good outweigh the bad? *shrugs* i think i shall reserve judgement till later tonight
love and stuff
Lx
current mood:  uncomfortable
current music: aerodynamic - daft punk
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| Sunday, February 8th, 2009
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7:00 pm - i'll have a question mark please carol
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i have absolutely no idea how this sort of stuff happens to me, but i have a new boyfriend.
i met him out a few weeks ago when i was going through my break up with mike and going out a lot and drinking far too much vodka/cider/wine/everything. anyway, we met again a few days later whislt in the smoking area in the cathouse (again!). i left to go find my friend at the bar upstairs and said i'd see im later to which his response was 'i'll find you i promise'
which struck me as a little odd. naturally i assumed that was that and went on my merry way to drink another vat of jagaermeister. however, he did find me. and we did the whole swapping numbers blah blah blah. but for some reason i got really nervous about it, and i generally tend not to. however, a good song came on and i kind of forgot where we were or who we were with and just walked to the dancefloor and kind of forgot about everything other than holding his hand and dancing about. wierd
so i see him again the next night, my friend was through from edinburgh and had got a room in a travel lodge. he came back with us where we all intended to hang out, however ray passed out instantly. we sat in the bath so's not to wake her and talked all night, i didnt get any sleep and looked utterly horrendous at uni the next day. but it was a very honest conversation, no games or telling stories that were embelished a bit to make them more which was cool.
and 2 weeks later here i am, someone's girlfriend again.
which i don't really understand. not to be arrogant here, because i'm not, but thinking about it i always have had/always seem to have a boyfriend. yet i'm a non-girly, not particularly boy chasing, alcoholic a-typical commitaphobe? *shrugs*
i mean, i'm quite happy to be his girlfriend. mike and i weren't right. that much was obvious to me from early on but i kind of wanted someone around, to see if i could make it work for longer than a few months. i'm aware that makes me a bit selfish *shrugs* it was fun for a while. but with the new guy...i dunno. things just seem to make sense. he's already figured out my 'i'm lying but i dont really want to talk about it' face which is impressive. and he does stupid wee things that make me smile, like the other day we were walking past george square and he just grabbed me and asked me to dance. so we did. under one of those tree's with the lights in them, in the snow. and that gesture was more important to me than the usual lines you hear form people 'you're so important to me...i'd do anything for you...you make me so happy...blah blah blah'. and that memory will stay with me for a long time. it's the small things.
so with this one we shall wait and see. thus far i'm trying to stay out of my head, trying to just...be. it's exciting
i read a bit out of my favourite book the other day, 'high fidelity' - nick hornby, that i thought kind of made sense:
"it seems to me that if you place music (and books, probably, and films, and plays, and anything that makes you feel) at the centre of your being, then you can't afford to sort out your love life, start to think of it as the finished product. You've got to pick at it, keep it alive and in turmoil, you've got to pick at it and unravel it until it all comes apart and you're compelled to start all over again. Maybe we all live life at too high a pitch, those of us who absorb emotional things all day, and as a consequence we can never feel merely content: we have to be unhappy, or ecstatically, head-over-heels happy, and those states are difficult to achieve within a stable, solid relationship"
i like when it snows, it's like everything get's wiped clean for a while and we get a fresh shot. i look forward to tomorrows new day
Lx
current mood:  hopeful
current music: i love you but i've chosen darkness - according to plan
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| Friday, January 23rd, 2009
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3:10 pm - lauren is.....?
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i wish i could just switch off my brain sometimes.
just turn it off. stop thinking. stop worrying. stop analysing. just stop for a while
i'm tired of thinking. i'm tired of everything
somedays i decide that if things were simple and straight forward i'd be bored, and i thank whatever or whoever it is i'm meant to thank, that my life is as wierd and mixed up as it is.
but then i have days like today, dark and twisty days where everything seems complicated and thinking is painful, yet i seem to be unable to stay out of my head. my thoughts are travelling at 80million miles an hour and i can't stop them. it's funny, you can run away from anything, uni, job, people, but you can't run away from your thoughts. somedays, i wish i could.
how emo
Lx
current music: snow patrol - you could be happy
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| Wednesday, January 14th, 2009
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11:01 pm - women love to weave
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every now and then i get the urge to write some ridiculously emo post in this thing...*shrugs*
i think it's because every now and then (and by that i mean often) i get this overwhelming feeling that i'm lost. it's like that movie, the truman show, i feel like i'm walking about a film set and everyone seems to have received their scripts in the post but mine got misplaced (or maybe my script writer had a hangover that day and didn't make it in to work) so i just kind of wander, some people seem to storm through life with an insane sense of purpose. now don't me wrong, i have goals, some which seem unlikely and others that i know will happen like going to australia for a couple of months this summer. for once in my life i've actually managed to save some pennies. but...i don't know they seem so unimportant sometimes. have you ever just stood on buchanan street or some equivalent busy street in another city and just watched. watched all these people doing things and going places and making decisions and just generally being 'in a rush' i find it depressing, and i dont really know why. or when you hear a song somewhere in public and i just get totally over emotional about it because it reminds me of something, someone, somwhere. and i feel angry that all these other people are there, invading 'my space'. even though it's quite clearly a public place. i don't really understand it. i think my brain was wired incorrectly. i seem to relive old relationships, think about important decisions i made, wondering where people are now. which gives me the feeling that the people i care about now, today, i need to keep a hold of. because if they're still my friend after all the crazy, well that's not so much friendship anymore but more like family members, except almost more imprtant because they can chose to walk away at any moment. i'm rambling. things whizz around my head at 80million miles an hour. i'm not unhappy, yet i'm not happy. it's a wierd emotion, i know what it feels like but i can't put a name on it. the only thing that get's me out of it is laughing so hard my stomach hurts or hearing/seeing something that makes me cry. it's bizare. i'm bizare.
so how can i expect a boy to understand that if i can't even get a grip on it, they can't. it's that simple. and about this sort of time, 3 months in, i get...disconnected from the idea of a relationship. i knew it would happen, i really tried this time. alas. but i'm not sure if i'm still in this relationship because i'm simply trying to prove i can do it. i think i got swept up in it all, as usual. he doesn't listen to me. he knows about me, lots of things about me but doesn't seem to just know me. he doesn't ask questions, even simple things like asking how i am on the phone, some of the things i've hinted at just go way over his head. and that bothers me. when i'm in a relationship i want to know things, like secrets other people don't know. because then it's something you share with him no one else does. and i don't think that's odd. well it might be, but that's just me. i told him i didnt want to rush things, and yet he asks me if i want to move in with him in april? no, michael i don't. i definitely do not. and he's stressing about me being away over the summer, the key word being summer dear, 6 months away. i need to take each day as it comes, plans in a relationship come waaaaaaaay down the line. not 2 months in. it bothers me. and today over lunch, i wasn't me. i wasn't affectionate or complimentary or witty or any of the things i usually do that i didn't even think about, i just did. but he didn't notice. and i don't think he ever would. he's too happy playing the i-have-a-girlfriend-therefore-i-trump-you card with his uni mates. i've met them, they were nice. they weren't my sort of people. and i'm not being a bitch, i was just me and they seemed to like me. which is...well i don't really know. i don't mind what his friends/family think of me and that also bothers me. it's not meant to be that way. yet he meets my friends and well...he was a bit of an arse. that also bothers me.
if you read that i'm impressed. if you understand what the hell i'm on about i'm even more impressed
i always hated english until i was forced to take it in my last year at school, having maanged to avoid it in 5th year. my english teacher was young, pretty, everyone liked her because she wan't verging on collecting her pension like the rest of the school teachers. i liked her because she believed what she taught us, she understood my writing wasn't the best but that didn't mean i wasn't creative. that in fact i understood the poems she gave us perhaps better than most people. i don't know what it was she saw in me, but i was thankful she saw it. the only year i ever loved english. and after i left i wanted to go back to thank her for it....and that's when i discovered she'd had an affair with a pupil and was no longer working as a teacher. *sigh* but she gave me this poem before she gave it to the rest of the class, she said she wanted my opinion on it before it got torn to pieces in one of our critical evaluation lessons. and i'll never forget that.
The Road Not Taken ~ Robert Frost
TWO roads diverged in a yellow wood,
And sorry I could not travel both
And be one traveler, long I stood
And looked down one as far as I could
To where it bent in the undergrowth;
Then took the other, as just as fair,
And having perhaps the better claim,
Because it was grassy and wanted wear;
Though as for that the passing there
Had worn them really about the same,
And both that morning equally lay
In leaves no step had trodden black.
Oh, I kept the first for another day!
Yet knowing how way leads on to way,
I doubted if I should ever come back.
I shall be telling this with a sigh
Somewhere ages and ages hence:
Two roads diverged in a wood, and I—
I took the one less traveled by,
And that has made all the difference.
all the difference indeed, time for a joint
Lx
current mood:  contemplative
current music: frightened rabbit - my backwards walk
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| Tuesday, November 18th, 2008
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8:55 pm - "the statue’s crying too and well he may"
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so ferg's leaving do last night was difficult,not least becuase it meant i was saying bye to my best friend but also because of the ridiculous nature of people from jordanhill.
so im seeing andy's flatmate mike....actually seeing might be a bit of a dis service.we're....well he's my boyfriend. it's is hard enough for me to be happy in a realtionship without negative banter left right and center, apparently the main problem is with mike. apparently beacuse andy and i used to go out (THREE YEARS AGO PEOPLE!!!!) this makes me technically off limits? once again, we broke up THREE YEARS AGO! but yeah so people are totally shocked that we're going out and blah blah blah. andy is being intensely petty about the whole thing,i tried to talk to him last night and he wouldnt even look me and quite actively ignored me. seriously, what age are we? 12?
aside from that mike is lovely and im not going to say anymore because i dont want to be a member of team smug
in other news, i may be moving in with uzma at some point within the next few weeks = win!
and fergus left....gutted.
Lx
current mood:  depressed
current music: belle and sebastian - piazza, new york catcher
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| Monday, October 13th, 2008
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4:41 pm - over the rainbow
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hurrah im totally out of my emocore mood now
took a few days, several litres of cider and a mew episode or hero's. lovely
the sun is shining and im eating chocolate. lovely.
maybe i like this ginger i go to uni with, we bonded over the fact we're both bollocks at maths...then again maybe i dont. hmm
Lx
current mood:  chipper
current music: fiona apple - angel
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| Tuesday, October 7th, 2008
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6:24 pm - hoppipolla....[jumping into puddles]
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today was/is not a good day
1. im unsure whether im employed or not at the moment, the bank are being really shite about organising my shifts
2. i realised that soon all my closest friends will be at least 40 miles away from me, with half being in different countries
3. due to aforementioned employment status i am now poor and have little funds with which to visit said friends
4. im grumpy and need someone to cheer me up
5. cheering me up in future months will be a mission as talking on the phone is not the same as having your mates close by
6. boys are stupid and the ones i like seem to want to mess me up further and the ones i want to be friends with, want me to be their girlfriend
7. i have had wet feet for over 6 hours today
8. i realised that 'home' is where i live, where my stuff is. but the concept of home is something i've not had in a long time. which is quite sad
9. i then noticed the cat was sick on my bed
urgh
on the other hand i currently have kind of purpley/black hair and 11 cans of cider
a small victory
Lx
current mood:  gloomy
current music: sigur ros - hoppipolla
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| Friday, September 26th, 2008
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6:17 pm - i'm doomed to a life of ripped tights and empty bottles of rum....that were previously full
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indeed, so by the subject choice today it's fairly obvious i went out last night. i had a fairly good evening....actually i had a great evening. ferg and i ate curry and drank copious amounts of cider and rum and read some poetry and watched ugly betty etc etc
lovely
sadly the art school was stupidly busy so we went to firewater instead where we consumed more rum and acquired some stray boys in the form of ian and frankie. i'm as yet undecided on ian.
went to uni this morning to get my timetable, looks fantastically geeky :o) this makes me happy, it also is stupidly un-full compared to my vet timetable which was basically designed by the gestapo
linz is a bastard....a fact that apparently doesnt seem to affect my feelings whatsoever. lame
in other news, the parental units are still away which is rather good. the cat's stoating about the place to keep me company and to explain all the random creeky noises my house seems to make for no real reason. she also protected me from a spider yesterday by making it run away under the sofa, hopefully never to be seen again *shudders*
called my australian buddy leigh (my husband on facebook ha ha) last night, which will be interesting to explain to my parents. he's rather lovely and i fully intend to ask for a ticket to australia in december for my 21st. which would be rather good, as he also runs a bar so i'd have somewhere to crash and somewhere to drink. i miss his chat something awful sometimes. we met when i was working in henricks bar in edinburgh sometime last year, he used to come and sit at the bar and chat away to me in his lovely accent and we formed a weird sort of friendship. which ultamitely ended up in some ridiculous love affair just before he left to go back to australia, bloody typical. he also wrote my a haiku.
i'm currently waiting for the new grey's anatomy episode to download. i love limewire.
Love Poem ~ Banksy
Beyond watching eyes
With sweet and tender kisses
Our souls reached out to each other
In breathless wonder
And when I awoke
From a vast and smiling peace
I found you bathed in morning light
Quietly studying
All the messages on my phone
appropriate
Lx
current mood:  pessimistic
current music: 8mm - forever and ever amen
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| Monday, September 15th, 2008
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7:50 pm - aye
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i'm in one of those wierd moods where im quite pissed off but cant actually be bothered with the hassle of arguing with anyone
it's hard to be chipper when all around me people's relationships are crumbling and i'm the agony aunt; which i've got no issue with, i'm more that happy to listen, but it doesnt help with my trusting of people in that generally i dont. and i keep getting evidence to prove to myself that i'm not being pessimistic, but simply realistic. what happened to fidelity? i often think, along with chivalry and honesty, it was lost in the 19th century.
lame
in other news, i have a new laptop = me actually being able to get on to the internet.
starting uni next week, im pretty nervous about it all really, i still feel a bit stupid at the moment so dunno if i'll be able to keep up with the whipper snappers of today's youth. however, it does mean that for the first time in as long as i can remember i won't be in full time employment, how nice! roll on student union/discounts/freshers week. lovely
hope everyone's well and all that jazz
"he felt as if his whole life was a dream; and he sometimes wondered whose it was and whether they were enjoying it" ~ douglas adams
Lx
current mood:  drained
current music: playradioplay! - some crap about the furniture
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| Thursday, August 7th, 2008
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8:37 pm - ponders
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so....i was thinking today; at what point over the last 3 years or so did i go from liking my mother - to really not liking her - to where i am today. which is silence....literally.
other than a couple of words we havnt spoken in almost a week and we live in the same household. i have absolutely nothing to say to her, to be fair i do keep myself merrily stoned so i don't shout at her. now dont get me wrong this suits me just fine, much easier. but it's wierd, it just kind of crept up on me.
in other news i am back off to edinburgh this weekend (jack if ur about,beanscene?)
which is both good and bad...well actually it's not bad at all other than not seeing fergus.
but good cause i can see my edinburgh branch of friends, get very drunk cause the clubs are open till 5am, soak up the festival atmosphere and not be the one stuck in the club working till 7am this year...well it's a long list
i'm off for a j, to watch some grey's anatomy and then to sleep
awesome
Lx
p.s. i'm going to be an aunty!!! my brother and his wife are having my neice/nephew in february. much excitement
current mood:  lethargic
current music: lou reed - romeo had juliet
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| Monday, July 28th, 2008
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1:07 pm - *shrugs*
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I really need to write in this a little more regularly...
what's been new recently? hanging out with ferg and jack quite a lot which is always a good thing.
my job is shite, eveytime i go to work i feel a little peice of my soul crumbling away. however it's soon restored by the magical powers if cider and good banter (that's my story and i'm sticking to it)
as with the male situation it is once again all over the place, i honestly think if someone put my love life in a sit-com it'd be hillarious.
in other news got my ear pierced again...twice. bringing me up to a grand totaly of 18 piercings. I'm pretty sure when i was younger i had aspirations of doing something really crazy like getting my ear pierced more than once or something mad like that....ha ha how things change
it's sunny so im going to eat ice lollies, read catcher in the rye & chain smoke in my back garden
Lx
current mood: restless
current music: dizzee rascal - that's not my name
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| Saturday, May 17th, 2008
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1:55 pm - long time no post
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hey!
how's things? so decided i may restart my Lj
mostly because i decided to read back through my old entries and they are hi-fucking-larious
so for comedy banter....
tonight i am going to the cathouse to dance like a twat! YES!
Lx
current mood:  pensive
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| Thursday, June 8th, 2006
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5:59 pm
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SUPRISE! remember me?
well i got a bit pissed off with lj for aaages, jsut felt like i was whineing on about everything and not getting off my arse and sorting it out you know?
so i did just that, ok so i dont ahve anywhere to live and im crashing at fergs but hey, its a roof :o) and i have two jobs! :o) one in a posh shop called links of london, start that tomorrow and i have to wear smart cloths and heels *sigh* but on the plus sude it's got ace bonus's (which they always get apparently) and its £6 and hour.not too shabby
the other...cabaret voltaire!! fucking mint! love that place,its a club/venue in edinburgh where i spend most of my moeny/time. started last nite, the people were ace and i you can wear whatever you want. cons and kjeans to work in somewhere thats plays music you like adn everyones really nice and can get free entry to gigs and club nights and cheap drinks? damn fucking right im in! so im feeling uber chipper atm, although im going to cab vol tonight for white heat, note to self: do not get drunk and make a tit of yourself because you have to work with these people for the next few months....although im pretty sure its going to happen. oh well *shrugs*
my family are still being pretty dickish *shrugs* guess you cant have everything.
hope yer all grand :o) and shall see you all at chris's birthday? think thats the next time i'll be back in glasgow town
love and stuff
Lx
current mood: chipper
current music: boy kill boy - suzie
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| Sunday, May 21st, 2006
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4:00 pm
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*sigh* im bored, not just with you know sitting updating lj but with life. its so dull, get up try find a job/fanny about with friends. go out get drunk, dance, maybe kiss a boy, go to sleep.wake up nurse hangover etc etc
ho hum i need something interesting to happen soon i believe....any ideas?
about time i won the lottery, so maybe i should buy a ticket then?
anyway that was a shit update ah well
Lx
current mood:  pissed off
current music: arcade fire - neighbourhood #2
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| Friday, April 28th, 2006
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2:48 pm
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so...went to speak to parents and they baisically told me where to go.
so im doing everything off my own back which is ok i guess but i dont have a job at the moment so all efforts are being put into writing kick arse cv. shall be handing them out over the next few weeks until i can get a job so i can then afford to eat. grand
apart from that not much else is new....*shrugs* bit boring really sorry
oh!! I ALMOST FORGOT....JENNI DIED!! well almost, ferg adn i were ont 44 adn we saw this figure running across the road to catch the bus. i assumed she'd stop in the middle of the road and accept the fact she'd missed the bus but no she kept running and almost got hit by the bus! i nearly had a heart attack when i found out it was jenni. silly!
'I’ll take manhattan in a garbage bag
With latin written on it that says
It’s hard to give a shit these days'
lou reed knows what he's talking about
and there's a cute guy sitting next to me...*smiles*
and it's sunny, so i guess things arent so bad? and jo said she'd make up a food package for me when i came back to visit her in glasgow, hurrah!
hope yer all well
Lx
current mood:  worried
current music: the rakes - just got paid but i cant get laid
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| Sunday, April 23rd, 2006
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3:47 pm
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so...after spending three hours with chris looking through the prospectus and a few hours more on my own just thinking and listening to the smiths (obviously essential when making important decisions) i have decided that i want to study pychology and sociology at edinburgh. :o) i need four b's...which i've got so all good. at the moment im not going to put myself through the stress of staying at vet to sit the exams due to the fact....my parents are fuckwits. i phoned them on friday night to tell them about my leaving vet and my mum was suprisingly all right about it and even sounded vaguely supportive. she was all blahblah if you're not happy then that's fine. so i came through on saturday to talk to them both about in person (what a waste of £10) i spent a grand total of 20 minutes in my house (a new record surely)
my mother's opening question me (before hello, how are you?) was...
'so you're jacking in your course then?'
they were all about the 'oh you know we never wanted you to be a vet we just wantyou to do what you want BUT WHY THE FUCK DID YOU WASTE ALL OUR MOENY THIS YEAR (incidently it was mostly my money) BLAH BLAH YOU'RE TOO IMMATURE TO GO TO UNI YOU'RE ONLY DOING THIS SO YOU DONT HAVE TO SIT EXAMS YOU'RE A WASTER.....' etc etc
so after much fighting (or as much that can take place in 20minutes) i stood up in a rage and asked them why they were supportive of everyone else's children when they werent happy and wanted to change course but not me? how naive was i thinking that maybe my happiness would be important to them?
so im leaving the course 2moro, if they had simply not been such wanks i would have stayed and sat my exam but seeing as they decided they dont want to buy me the flat anymore so now joe and i dont have anywhere to live (sssshhhhh dont tell him yet im gonna wait and see if they've changed their minds today, it may have bee a heat of the moment kind of thing) and no money. ace!
thanks for all the support from you guys :o) i really appreciate it
xx
p.s. jack yes can we be gypsies? how good would that be?
p.p.s im gonna fone them soon and tell them im changing whether they like it or not so its up to them whether or not they support me or not *shrugs* i've had so much shit to deal with regarding my family the past year or so i really am beyond the point of caring. they are gash.....it's as simple as that
EDIT : parents are cunts (you know its serious i hate that word) but i have finally decided m gonna stay in edinburgh and get a job and take a year out and see what i want to do with my life. no point rushing so we'll see what happens. love you's all lots x
current mood:  calm
current music: counting crows - mrs potter's lullaby
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| Friday, April 21st, 2006
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3:48 pm
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right guys...im thinking i dont want to be a vet anymore.
im thinking i want to study maths and music, opinions will be very much welcome. gonna fone the rents later...fun times!
i feel a lot better now that i've accepted that i dont want to do it, like i really really enjoy all the practical stuff out on the farm and whatever but what? im gonna be a farmer? not so much no
and i love music, tis as simple as that and if i ahve to do something boring suchs as maths so i can study it well so be it.
weight off my shoulders i think, one down about 4 other billion weights to go
Lx
current mood: weird
current music: new rhodes - from the beginning
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| Saturday, April 8th, 2006
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6:13 pm
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euch well lambing was.....an experience. got regularly covered in placenta and blood and ming and poo adn stuff
but hey, good times right?
anyway some photographer dude came to the farm to take pictures so...if yeh wanna see here i am...-->http://editorial.gettyimages.com/source/search/FrameSet.aspx?s=ImagesSearchState%7c0%7c0%7c-1%7c28%7c0%7c0%7c0%7c1%7c%7c%7c0%7c0%7c0%7c0%7c0%7c0%7c0%7c0%7c7%7c%7clambing%7c1125084063323127%7c0%7c0%7c0%7c0&p=7&tag=1 here
fun fun
so now im back and thats all the exciting news i have
(and im bored so onto emma's meme and i cant be arsed working out how to make it onto one of those wee blue link things so tough)
1. You can only say YES or NO.
2. You are NOT ALLOWED to explain ANYTHING unless someone messages you / comments and asks!
1. Taken a picture naked? no
2. Painted your room? yes
3. Made out with a member of the same sex? yes
4. Drove a car? yes
5. Danced in front of your mirror? yes
6. Have a crush? yes
7. Been dumped? yes
8. Stole money from a friend? no
9. Gotten in a car with people you just met? yes
10. Been in a fist fight? no
11. Snuck out of your house? yes
12. Had feelings for someone who didn't have them back? yes
13. Been arrested? no
14. Made out with a stranger? yes
15. Met up with a member of the opposite sex somewhere? yes
16. Left your house without telling your parents? yes
17. Had a crush on your neighbour? no
18. Ditched school to do something more fun? yes
19. Slept in a bed with a member of the same sex? yes
20. Seen someone die? um...something not a someone
21. Been on a plane? yes
22. Kissed a picture? no
23. Slept in until 3PM? yes
24. Love someone or miss someone right now? yes
25. Laid on your back and watched cloud shapes go by? yes :o)
26. Made a snow angel? yes
27. Played dress up? yes
28. Cheated while playing a game? hello? what is being the banker at monopoly for?
29. Been lonely? yes
30. Fallen asleep at work/school? often
31. Been to a club? yes
32. Felt an earthquake? no
33. Touched a snake? yes
34. Ran a red light? yes
35. Been suspended from school? no
36. Had detention? yes
37. Been in a car accident? no
38. Hated the way you look? yes
39. Witnessed a crime? yes
40. Pole danced? no
41. Been lost? yes
42. Been to the opposite side of the country? yes
43. Felt like dying? yes
44. Cried yourself to sleep? yes
Where is 45?
46. Sang karaoke? no
47. Done something you told yourself you wouldn't? yes
48. Laughed till some kind of beverage came out of your nose? yes
49. Caught a snowflake on your tongue? yes
50. Kissed in the rain? yes
51. Sang in the shower? yes
52. Made love in a park? no
53. Had a dream that you married someone? yes
54. Glued your hand to something? yes
55. Got your tongue stuck to a flag pole? no
56. Ever gone to school partially naked? no
57. Been a cheerleader? god no
58. Sat on a roof top? yes
59. Didn't take a shower for a week? yes
60. Ever too scared to watch scary movies alone? yes
61. Played chicken? no
62. Been pushed into a pool with all your clothes on? yes
63. Been told you're hot by a complete stranger? yes
64. Broken a bone? yes
65. Been easily amused? yes
66. Laughed so hard you cried? yes
67. Mooned/flashed someone? yes
68. Cheated on a test? yes
69. Forgotten someone's name? yes
70. Slept naked? yes
71. Gone skinny dipping in a pool? no
72?
73. Blacked out from drinking? yes
74. Played a prank on someone? yes
75. Gone to a late night movie? no
76. Made love to anything not human? no
77. Failed a class? no, god how sad!
78. Choked on something you're not supposed to eat? yes
79. Played an instrument for more than 10 hours? yes
80. Cheated on a girl/boyfriend? yes
81. Did you celebrate the 4th of July? no
82. Thrown strange objects? yes
83. Felt like killing someone? yes
84. Thought about running away? yes
85. Ran away? yes
86. Did drugs? yes
87. Had detention and not attend it? yes
No 88?
89. Made a parent cry? yes
90. Cried over someone? yes
91. Owned more than 5 sharpies? eh,...wtf?
92. Dated someone more than once? yes
93. Had a dog? yes
94. Owned an instrument? yes
95. Been in a band? no
96. Drank 25 sodas in a day? no
97. Broken a cd? no
98. Shot a gun? no
amazing
have a good day all
xx
current mood:  discontent
current music: rilo kiley - always
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